I call heaven and earth to witness against you today, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and curse. Therefore choose life, that you and your offspring may live,
loving the LORD your God, obeying his voice and holding fast to him, for he is your life and length of days, that you may dwell in the land that the LORD swore to your fathers, to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob, to give them.” Deuteronomy 30:19-20 ESV
Before entering the promised land, Moses spoke this before passing away at the age of 120. The Lord would go before his people in place of Moses, across the Jordan. There the people would be tempted by gods of other nations. If they turned from God, they would surely perish. This was their warning and promise. However, if they followed God, they would surely have victory and prosper in their new-found land.
I firmly believe this promise has continued to this day, not just for the Jews, but for the Gentiles that believe in Christ and are therefore grafted into the lineage of Israel through Christ. The principle of this, has been apparent for generations and millennia. Those who seek God will find him and be able to enter into relationship with him. Such as Enoch, Noah, Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob who lived before Christ and the establishment of the law. So, why do we doubt God? Why do I doubt God, when I have seen his faithfulness so many times and in so many different ways? The answer, as I am learning, is quite simple. We doubt God, because we do not accept or understand his character and nature and who we are in him. If we did, we would never let doubt in.
I am sitting inside writing this as a thunderstorm is raging outside. This is a picture of what is going on inside me. I am in Japan. This is so crazy and wonderful, but doubts have been surfacing like a hunting pack looking to devour the vision God has given me. God has been dealing with my identity issues. My identity is still very much centred in what I do. This is causing me issues and opening me up for continuous heart-break. If your identity is based on something you must fulfil, then when you can’t fulfil it you lose meaning in your life. However, our value and identity is now in Christ. Often, we don’t actually believe that. We still try to earn favour and grace. We battle to show off our strength and fight to prove we are worthy of our call. When Paul says to live a life worthy of our calling, he says to do it through love and obedience, not by proving we are worthy. God already calls us worthy, and has already paid the price proving it. So are we not calling God’s sacrifice and death not good enough and making God a liar, by saying we have to do it ourselves. Would God have died if it wasn’t required for our salvation? Did not Jesus ask the father to take this cup away if there was any other way? And did not the Father answer the requests of the Son?
Week nine started with me going to a massive buddhist temple to help support a YWAM friend who was going to support her buddhist friends perform a hand bell concert. We spent 15 minutes with formalities, 15 minutes watching the concert, one hour of them trying to convert us, and an hour and a half of sharing the gospel in one of the biggest buddhist temples in Tokyo!!! It was beyond amazing. We left with our spirits high and prophetic words of God’s intentions for winning their hearts. Then on that next Tuesday, God had me crying during Livingroom. God dealt with the fact that, I am not allowed to live in depression and darkness any longer. Then Friday, we had an amazing outreach in Ikebukuro. Distractions every where. We had such a difficult time focusing on God, but near the end of our time a Japanese woman who was drunk came up to us. She wanted us to sing in Japanese, because she loved our music. We did and she became very interested in the fact we were praising God. She was captivated by how it made her feel. Then this week she came again and got saved!!!! We also hosted a TGI Friday’s and bowling night for our friend how will be soon leaving to get married. I also failed a Japanese test. EPICLY failed.
Incredible things have been happening and at the same time, God has been seriously challenging many of us with what we are placing our identity in. He is giving me a considerable amount of revelation about his love and what it means to be a child of God. I am very excited for this week that is just starting. I am really feeling excited for some deliverance that is coming up. I am patiently waiting for God to deal with this stuff. I am not even sure what these things are, but God has been telling me he will be taking care of them.